Content in now

I did the kind of shopping I would love to do all the time today.a couple extra things to make an every day meal a little special.A block from the BART in my new neighborhood is this fancy shmancy organic grocery store. Ive walked passed it dozens of times but never gone in. I was thinking about what to make for dinner and what I had on hand and decided on a frittata.

I had everything I needed to put in it but decided I wanted a little bit of spinach and maybe some bread. So I wandered in and being that it was dinner time it was quite busy. I didn't explore that much, but I did notice that they have beans and grains and other bulk items for not that much more than my cheap produce market I go to. I came out for under 5 bucks with spinach, a fresh baguette (nice and crunchy on the outside and soft on the inside) and tomato to add to salad makings I already had and spinach.

My husband said to me last night, we have no food. Ha! granted my normal shopping and cooking schedule has been thrown off because I was out of town, in town and out off town again all with in 2 weeks. but with almost everything I had on hand (and really it could have been everything, I just wanted to add a couple of  extra touches) I now have a frittata in the oven. it has roasted peppers, spinach, white corn, sausage, garlic, and feta cheese. not half bad for having no food if I do say so myself. served with a side salad and crusty baguette.

It's a beautiful (clear!) San Francisco evening, with just a touch of a breeze. I have an amazing husband, a cozy apartment that's slowly coming together and a God who is oh so amazing that I thank for my home at every meal.

If only I could always remember this moment, and to always in every situation be content in my now

I Love Christmas

So Christmas has always been my favorite holiday, I cant even begin to describe how much I truly love it. the lights , Christmas tree, carols, every last bit.

This year I have found that I can love the season even more than I thought I could. This last weekend was crazy busy but every last minute was truly the Christmas spirit. Saturday we had the Christmas banquet at church. we haven't been able to go the last 2 years because of lack of funding, but this year I was bound and determined to go, heck I was even on the committee to help plan it, I was in. Well once again there was major lack of fundage and we just couldn't find the 25 dollars a person for tickets, well long story short someone found out we wernt going to be going and they bought our tickets for us! I am continually amazed by and blessed by my church family. This isn't the first time a need has been filled by someone at my church, as Toni so aptly put it a while back, its the body of Christ working the way it should, and it makes me cry. needless to say the Christmas banquet was amazing and it was mostly because I looked around and I belonged, it is home.

I was recently reminded that I am home here, I belong. I've always had this feeling that I didn't really belong and despite being a christian for most of my life, I was reminded that it wasn't so much that I have found great friends and a church family (which I truly have) but its that I belong in Jesus and I am actively seeking the plan he has for me and not the perfectly (ha!)constructed one I have for myself.

Yesterday we had a guest worship pastor, Rick Muchow from Saddleback Church, Rick Warren's church. The leadership had the chance afterwards to have a little get together and he gave a little bit of his testimony about helping grow saddleback and it gave me a renewed spirit to step up and help in youth ministry.

This weekend was very and long and very exhausting but it was so great to get to celebrate the spirit of the season with a great group of people.

the icing on the cake was a cookie party tonight where everyone baked cookies and then exchanged, it had been a long day and it was fun and relaxing and cozy, complete with a crackling fire and warm apple cider.

God makes me smile and I am so thankful that despite the fact that I'm jobless and don't know where rent is coming from next month I am truly loved by him and he knows where my rent is coming from!

my memory verses for discipleship this month, Phil. 4:6-7

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with Thanksgiving, present you requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus.