blurry

my life is a big blur right now. all work and a little church and alot boring.

alot of stuff has happened spiritually over the last few weeks, starting with camp.

I'm pretty sure I'm being called to full time children's ministry and other such, whoa what? stuff.

I don't know what to do with any of it right now, nor do I have the time or energy to really let it sink in and process. all I can do right now really is keep on keeping on.

so such is my life, nothing and everything going on

project time

I just got the tension on my sewing machine fixed, just in time for oh so very many projects

baby shower gift, wedding shower, housewarming, wedding and one long overdue quilt that I still only have a vague idea on what i want to do

looks like I wont have a dining room table for a while, quilting table here I come

but I am oh so very excited. its been quite some time since Ive done any real amount of sewing and I'm itching to get my creative juices going

slow to busy, very very busy

so Ive had roughly the last 5 weeks off of work. until about this last week and half I hadn't don't much.

so far in the last 10 days I've:

• Gone to the beach and BBQ with some new friends
• had a house party with the youth
• went to the fabulous 4th of July picnic in Golden Gate Park with my church family
• gone to kids camp for 3 days

Ive basically crammed all of summer into a very short amount of time.

I got back from camp at about 1am Wednesday night and had to be back to work last Thursday at 6. the last 5 days have been exhausting. finally I have the next two days off, which will also be action packed.

camp was amazing, God really did wonders in the lives of the kids and the leaders alike, including myself.

but that's for another post, for now its nap time.

Eeyore

today I feel like Eeyore. not so much the nobody loves me part, but just the general attitude.

I am touched my the generosity of spirit of some friends today and at the same time it just kinda increases my general meh-ness of it all.

i need to get over it. having to give up and go "home" is not necessarily inevitable.

marriage

as we approach our 6th wedding anniversary and as my best friend just got married I have been reflecting alot lately on marriage.

what makes marriages work? what makes soooo many of them not work?

My own marriage has been for the most part very easy. we've had our share of difficulties and when talking about it with David the other day we're having a harder time of it now financially then we did when we were both on strike but I think we're happier now then we where then. We were crazy happy then because we had only been married less than 6 months, but now its the long lasting happiness and not the newlywed bliss. But for the most part our marriage has been easy and I am so thankful for that everyday.

and for my husband. oh how I love him. The love grows everyday and it makes me sappy. But especially lately to see how his relationship with God has grown and how he has grown as a man, I am so proud of him.

but the question is why has it been so easy? my mom made a comment to a friend of mine a couple of years ago about our marriage that I had totally forgotten about until recently and i think its part of it. it was something along the lines of David and I just let each other be. yes we share our lives together but we also leave plenty of room for each of us to still be who we are as individuals, we give each other space it was I think my mom was getting at.

and its true we do that. yes he drives me crazy when he comes in to the room I'm in when I'm on the phone no matter who it is, and i drive it him crazy when I come up behind him chewing without realising it. but we still immensely enjoy spending time together and doing random old married couple stuff. and we talk about things when its uncomfortable and we're both ridiculously messy people who neither one of us got the neat freak gene from our parents, but we make it work and the dishes always get washed eventually.

and i don't even know what the point of this is. I Love my husband and and am thankful for him and cant believe 6 years has already flown by, well almost.