isnt it ironic?

the difference between us getting by this month financially (more or less) is the fact that our car registration is due, it is $142.

my first pay check with at whopping 11 hours on it will be $141 before taxes.

I laughed hysterically when I realised this.

in theory I get alot more hours in the next 2 weeks, i hope this turns out to be true.

Stagnation

things have just been going along lately. started work, kinda. its an odd job/company and by no means something i want to do long term but its easy. I just hope and pray I get more hours soon.

I have gotten back out of the habit of daily quiet time which I'm starting to feel the repercussions of. I feel like I'm just going through the motions of my relationship with God and not putting forth the effort I need to/should.

life is busy but I'm not entirely sure with what. I think I'm just kinda going through the motions of almost everything in my life. trying not to be discouraged about the job/money situation i think is taking its toll on me.

some dear friends recently got engaged and some others just got pregnant so I'm excited about their respective joys.

there is plenty to be joyful about right now, I really need to focus on that and continue to have faith that God will provide.

blah blah blah. i don't know. life trudges along.

Oh Boy(s)!

This weekend we had the privilege of hosting two boys from Uganda. They were part of the Children of the world choir that visits our church each year.
I was called Friday morning and the church was in a frenzy because they didn't have enough host families. Me being me said yes without even thinking or consulting David . and of course me being me panicked as soon as I hung up at realised what I had done. Then I went into a flurry of cleaning and laundry and grocery shopping in preparation of their arrival, all the while thinking what am I going to with 2 boys for an entire weekend?

overall the weekend went well. We had Swaibu (11) and Shadrach (8). we played Lego's, massive amounts of uno(which Swaibu liked to cheat at) went to the movies and took the "train"(BART) to a near by town and wandered around the mall. there were only a couple times where Shadrach broke down and pouted because he didn't get his way but overall they were well behaved, ate all their food, including massive amounts of ketchup with almost everything i served and generally were well behaved, good natured, smiled and laughed alot and called David and I "Auntie and Uncle" it was a good experience and I'm glad I agreed even before I thought of the ramifications.

today at church all the kids performed and it was great, I cried and admired on like a proud mama. It makes me even more impatient to have my own. I wish we were in a position right now to sponsor a child of our own through World Help (http://www.worldhelp.net/) there are so many needy children out there and in the grand scheme of things $30 a month is not that much. someday we will though and I will know exactly where the money is going, to awesome and deserving children.

(Swaibu is in the background and Shadrach is in the foreground)

today will be a good day

flowers,kittens, chocolate, babies, coffee, rainy days, the color purple, polka dots, friends, penguins, quilts, warm fuzzy sweaters, getting letters in the mail, Jesus, my husband,post its, magazines, family,music,coffee shops, waterfalls, windows, houses, christmas, warm spring days with just a little breeze, rivers, hiking,shopping,skirts that twirl when you spin,laughter, a good book, the library, finding friends that get you, things shaped like other things,scarfs,gloves, trees, the ocean,baking,cooking....

pumpkin chocolate chip muffins
tuna noodle casserole

a love feast with bake sale, cute little girls selling their proud concoctions for missions

trying not to freak out

im freaking out about the lack of jobs, finances and general stabiliity of it all.

I got to thinking yesterday why we thought it was such a good idea to get into debt and get out degrees.

we had perfectly well paying jobs, insurance and if we played our financial cards right we probably could have been in a position to buy a house on the coast.

but nooooo, we had to get our degrees. now we're jobless, in a one bedroom apartment that we don't have rent for after next month and in major educational debt. thinking about the numbers makes me want to puke.

ok I'm having a pity party. I just need to be reminded of the great friends and church family I have gained since moving up here and how much stronger my relationship with God is. We will get through this, he's gotten others through much worse than this, I just need to keep the faith.

I can do this. really.